Dull Golden Sunlight

It was an afternoon, therefore, we did not require any light in our home, except for the kitchen. And I was standing in the alley outside of our bedroom. And looked at the sunlight-lit bedroom. The sunlight lit it, though, not entirely.

That afternoon, the sun was dim. Hence, the sunlight in the room was dull gold in color.

I entered the room, dropped myself on the sofa, and sat with a humped posture. In front of me, there was my parents’ cupboard which had a mirror attached to its door. I looked at myself in the mirror. And I looked at my overall appearance. I saw my naked upper body, my droopy eyes, as they always were, my red and black colored checked shorts, and my poorly built physique. I had been exercising every alternate day of every week of a month. Therefore, my physique had just started developing.

I felt low about myself. Because I saw my build and felt that it was very poor. And thus, I felt valueless.

As I sat, the dim and dull golden sunlight hit my left arm and partly my neck. I stared at it in my reflection. Gradually, I started feeling that I was a warrior waiting for a war. I observed that the dull golden sunlight posed me as a warrior. I turned my head towards the window and looked out. I felt as if a war was taking place outside. It felt so because the dull golden sunlight was throughout the sky and everywhere else.

Wherever the dull golden sunlight was, I saw that place as a part of a war field. The dull golden sunlight gave an aura of violence and aggression to everything it touched.

I turned my head back to the mirror and stared at my changed reflection. Now, my droopy eyes were open like an owl, they expressed violence. My mouth was in a certain way. In a way–I feel–expressed the wait for a war. I wasn’t concerned anymore about my insignificance and incapability; I felt that in the war I would be a significant soldier who would contribute to the war, not be the valueless one who would die without killing anyone from the enemy’s army.

My value changed. And I changed from valueless to valuable.